pictures for the week

it was all a dream

Life can only be understood backward. But it must be lived forward.

-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he'snot calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately, he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you.

- He's Just Not that Into You

The strongest people love even when their heart is broken.

Expectation is the root of all heartache.

- William Shakespeare

Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you actually feel it.

- Albus Dumbledore

Most of the things you worry about never happen.

It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone,

even if they don't deserve our forgiveness.

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.

The only way to accept an insult is to ignore it. If you can't ignore it, top it. 

If you can't top it, laugh at it. If you can't laugh at it, then you probably deserved it in the first place. 

do you want it bad enough

 just because today was the most terrible day of

your life doesn’t mean tomorrow couldn’t be the best.

 "what happens if a car comes?"

"we die"

 <3

HAHA

the only problem is that god 

only gave man a brain and a penis

and only enough blood to run one at at a time

HAHAHAppy

a bit too much meaning..

Hate me today 

Hate me tomorrow 

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you 

Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow 

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you 

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave 

Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made 

And like a baby boy I never was a man

Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hands

And then I fell down yelling "make it go away" just make her smile 

Come back and shine just like it used to be

And then she whispered "How could you do this to me?"

watch these in the dark.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJ6_hDrTZik

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t73f5P2g4Zs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBF0kQAzhd8&feature=related

look at me look at me

i know what you mean

It hurts like hell, doesn't it? Knowing that even at my worst, I'm still better than you




i'm the one who has to die when it's time for me to die. so let me live my life the way i want to.




no one ever gets tired of loving.but everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry, and hurting.




Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding extra courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there.




When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or fight like hell.




i've been running around for the past year with absolutely no direction. i didn't know what i wanted, all i knew was that you were always there, always in my head, always under my skin. 




"I don't fucking care!" She screamed at him with tears streaming down her face. She shook her head with all the thoughts in her head. Her voice was shaky and choked up, but she didn't care. Her words made thepoint. "You know, I feel sorry for you. Don't feel sorry for me. I don't have any regrets at all. You're the one who makes yourself detached. You're the one who gets a thrill at just fucking girls." She had the look ofdisgust on her face as she continued. People in the halls were all dead quiet listening to her, the same people who have talked shit to her. "If I'm pathetic to you because I care, because I'm not afraid to love and I'm not afraid to put all I have into something, fine. Call me fucking pathetic because I care too much. I'd rather do that, then do the shit you do to people." She spat, and her words were real and held such impact. And with that, she walked away from them, all of them.




I honestly couldn't care less if you like the same bands or you've read the same books. Tell me one original thing, tell me one true, real thing that brings me to my fucking knees that I've never heard before, and I'm yours.




The bad thing about falling to pieces is that it hurts. The good thing about it is that once you're lying there in shards, you've got nothing left to protect, and so you have no reason not to be honest.

i know this hurts, it was meant too.

Life is constantly changing, that's what happens. Nothing ever stays the same & that is how it will always be. People come in and out of your life, sometimes they pass by quickly & sometimes they stay forever. You have to decide what is worth waiting for and what isn't. You have to make tough decisions & live with consequences. Sometimes thing don't turn out the way you want them too & sometimes that's exactly what you needed. Life is NOTHING like the movies. You will get hurt, you will cry & you don't always get what you want. You especially don't always get a happy ending. Life isn't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride. Sit back & enjoy all that is great in this world, because otherwise you will miss out on what is right in front of you. If you look at something in a new angle, you will see just how beautiful it really is. There is beauty hidden even in the gloomiest of places. 

I'd like to think I never did those things, or never said that to you. But the truth is, I did and that's apart of me. I make mistakes, and I know who I am because of them. I lost you because of it, but to lose you meant to gain myself

I decided that it's time for me to move on... wow it took me a long time to decide that. It's been almost five months, and I guess I finally got sick of being the "back-up" and settling for second best. It's not fair for me to pretend that one night with you would take us back to how it was. It was stupid to think that I could handle that. I don't even want to talk to you. I HATE YOU, and yet I don't. Even though you hurt me and fucked me over and ruined everything, I don't hate you. You made me a better person, you taught me more about myself than anyone ever has and you helped me more than you know. You were another piece of my story, a piece that no longer fits and I'm ready to accept that and move forward. Life has been so much different since you left, and it's not half bad. I never thought I could be happy without you and I'm finding that I am actually happy almost all the time. The only time I'm not is when I see you, you being around makes me feel physically sick. I still get those stupid butterflies and weak in the knees, and I hate that. I want to be able to see you and have you mean nothing to me. I know that will never happen, but the more time passes the easier it is to see you and be okay. I know one day I will be able to see you and be happy that you are my friend. I know one day I will be happy that you are a part of my past and not my future. You never deserved me, and you never will. Knowing that helps me get through this. I feel like a dumb little girl for still being so wrapped up in you but in all honesty, you were the one who helped me find myself. I know I made mistakes, but you did too. The difference is, I forgive you.. Forgiveness is the first step to being able to forgive myself, forgiveness is what I need from you. I guess I need to know that you don't hate me, and that you still care for me in some way. Knowing that we can't be together is hard enough, but knowing we will never be friends is worse. I don't want to think about you anymore, not the way I do and I don't want to miss you as much as I do. I don't know when that will stop, but it's getting easier each day. One day I'll be fine, and on that day will be one of those days I will never forget.

rock.paper.scissors.

happy.

I DARE YOU, you won't do it.

things that should be common sense

Chapter 8

Back in the day, (which was a Wednesday by the way) news was found in a newspaper. Once technology boomed, news was put on the Internet. Now, not only is there Internet for news, but people can also get their news through blogs, live chats, twitter, and even Facebook.

To make sure that the audience that follows each of these different types of media is getting what they are looking for, writers and journalists have to be accommodating. Journalists and writers alike have to make sure that something that may be appropriate for their Facebook audience won't offend those following them on Twitter.

There are five different roles of the "New Journalist." Each of these roles put together are what have helped to make new journalism flourish. To do this, there needs to be a multimedia storyteller, an investigator/sense maker, content manager, community builder, and an entrepreneur. A multimedia storyteller is someone who knows exactly which part of media to use for what. This meaning, they understand communicating with the audience better than most. They will decide if such an such an article would be better as a blog or a front page news story. The investigator/sense maker is the person who helps connect the community to the story. This person knows what information is needed, how to find it and how to use it. The Content manager finds ways to make more advanced stories either by live stream video, interactive stories, backgrounders, and using web resources. The community builder is the person who goes out and connects with readers through networking sites. This person uses things like Facebook and Twitter to share issues and spread news. The entrepreneur is the person who knows how to come up with good strategies, use marketing and market research.

I had never realized how much Americans actually use Goggle and other search engines to find information until I read that Canadians don't. I can't imagine how other people could not use Google, one of those "how did we ever survive before it" kind of thing. I see this as a good and a bad thing. Having search engines such as Google have made finding information easier, which in turn makes life easier. The bad part is America's dependency on just being able to simple "Google it."

When asked if my cup is half-full or half-empty, my only response is that I am thankful I have a cup.

100 truths

1 Relationship Status = Single.

2. Nickname(s) = Helen Keller.

3. Zodiac sign = Aquarius.

4. Male or female = Female.

5. Elementary School = Martin E. Young School.

6. Middle School = Randolph Community Middle School & Woodward School for Girls.

7. High School = Blue Hills Regional Technical High School.

8. Hair color = Blonde.

9. Long or Short hair= Medium.

10. Loud or Quiet music = Loud.

11. Sweats or Jeans = Jeans.

12. Phone or Camera = Phone with a camera.

13. Health freak = Not at all.

14. College= Bridgewater State University.

16. Indoor or Outdoor= Outdoor. 

17. Tattoo = 1, but am getting at least 3 more.

18. Pepsi or Coke = Pepsi.

19. Been in an airplane = Yes.

20. Been in a relationship = Yes. 

21. Been in a car accident = Yes. 

22. Been in a fist fight = Just one. 

23. First piercing = Ears. 

24. First best friend = Rose Pelati, 

28. First big journey? = Don't think it's really happened yet. 

29. Last person you talked to in person today apart from family = Sean.

30. Last person you texted = Sean.

31. Last person you watched a show with = Ashley, Maggie & Michelle. 

32. Last food you ate = Yogurt.

33. Last movie you watched = 500 Days of Summer.

34. Last song you listened to = I'll stand by you ++Carrie Underwood

35. Last thing you bought = Cigarettes.

36. Last person you hugged = My dad.

WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE 

37. Food(s) = Homemade Tortellini's 

39. Clothing = My DEB jeans 

40. Flower = Lillies.

41. Hottest girl/boy in the world = Charlie Hunnam

42. Color(s) = YELLOW!

43. Movies = Green Street Hooligans. 

44. Subjects = Writing.

X IF YES: 

46. [x] celebrated Halloween 

48. [x] UNLIMITED minutes and/or texts on your cell phone 

49. [ ] had someone question your sexual orientation. 

51. [ ] got pregnant 

52. [ ] had an abortion 

53. [ ] did something you regret 

54. [x] broke a promise 

55. [x] kept a secret 

56. [x] pretended to be happy when not 

57. [x] met someone who changed your life 

58. [x] pretended to be sick 

59. [ ] left the country 

60. [x] tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it 

61. [x] cried over the silliest thing 

62. [x] ran a mile with out stopping 

63. [x] went to the beach with my best friend 

64. [x] got into an argument with your friends 

65. [x] hated someone 

66. [ ] have ever stayed single a whole year 

CURRENTLY: 

67. Eating = Nothing.

68. Drinking = Pink Lemonade.

69. Listening to = More Like Her ++ Miranda Lambert 

73. Want kids = Eventually.

74. Want to get married = Someday.

75. Careers in mind = Too many.

IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: 

77. Shorter or taller = Taller.

78. Eye color = Blue.

79. Dark hair or light = Light.

81. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship. 

82. Looks or personality = Personality. 

HAVE YOU EVER 

83. Lost glasses/contacts = Nope.

85. Held a gun/knife for self defense = Nope.

86. Killed somebody = Nope.

88. Been arrested = Nope.

89. Cried when someone died = Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 

90. Yourself = Most of the time. 

91. Miracles = Definitely. 

92. Love at first sight = No.

93. Easter Bunny = No.

94. Santa Claus = Yes. <3

95. Sex on the first date = Depends.

96. Kiss on the first date = Yes.

IS THERE:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? = Yes.

98. Is there something you would like to say to someone? = Not really.

99. Is there someone you want to fix things with? = Yes.

100. Is there someone you will always remember? = Yes!

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things to think about

remember to carefully select those things you

choose to think about for more than thirty seconds.

i'm gonna stop looking back and start moving on.

learn how to face my fears. love with all my heart,
make my mark. i wanna leave something here

be a best friend, tell the truth & overuse i love you. go to

work, do your best & don't outsmart your common sense.

never let your prayin knees get lazy & love like crazy.

& in the end, some of your biggest pains

 become some of your greatest strengths.

promise only what you can deliver,

then deliver more than you promise.

the biggest problem in the world could

have been solved when it was small.

the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people said you could not do.

some of the most interesting friendships are between people

who are attracted to each other.. but cannot act on it.

you just have to be happy, after that everything will fall into place.

failure isn't falling down, its remaining where you've fallen.

being defeated is only a temporary condition, giving up is what makes it permanent.

stick that in your juice box & sip it :P

I like it on the..

i like it on the bed or on the couch or on the floor. This seems like it is some dirty joke going around Facebook, but it is actually for a good cause. Women all over the country are posting their Facebook status's to say "I like it on the..." as a way to celebrate Breast Cancer Awareness Month. At the end of October women were asked to post the color of their underwear and this year they were asked to put where they like to put their purse.

Honestly, I laughed so hard once I finally figured out what this was all about! I remember last year when this was going on and had no idea to this day that it wasn't just to be a little scandalous.

So, if you were wondering, i like it on the floor. :)

well, here it goes

So, this is actually from my other blog. No one seemed to see mine because I used a different website. I figured this would be a good post to start off this new blog. Hope you like it :D

I had an epiphany today in my journalism class. I figured out exactly what I want to do and what I need to do to get there. I need to raise my GPA up to at least a 3.2. I need to apply to the schools that I actually want to attend and pick the major that I want to study. School was always “my thing” growing up. I got honor roll almost every semester of every year in high school and then I got to college and it never felt right. Some classes I loved, while others made me want to gouge my eyeballs out. Classes just seemed pointless and so I didn’t put a hundred percent into all my work causing, not terrible grades, but definitely not what I could have gotten.

I never knew why I could have loved high school and yet hate college, so I took a semester off to figure it out. Boy, was that a huge mistake! I took the semester off and did absolutely nothing with my life except sit at my house and be lazy. I figured out that I had to go back to school in order to be someone in life and re-applied to Bridgewater. After getting my acceptance I was ecstatic and started out the semester in the best way. I was doing all of my homework on time and even doing extra credit. I was working hard to get back on track and it seemed as though I was heading in the right direction. I was wrong, again.

Second semester, spring of 2010 started out alright. I had four classes that I didn’t really want to take but had to take to fill credits. It started out as just skipping a class or two to sleep in or because I didn’t finish the homework, to not going for a whole week. I didn’t realize until the semester was coming to a close that I was going to fail… everything. I had to withdraw two weeks before finals to try and keep my GPA at the 2.8 it is right now. In doing so, I lost all the credits for that semester and still had to pay for it.

I have been at Bridgewater state since I graduated in 2008 and only have 24 credits under my belt. My GPA is alright but not that great and I still haven’t declared a major. I never really knew what I wanted to do, so I never really did anything to make sure that I could accomplish that goal. I never had a push from anyone to do what I really wanted to do, but instead I was told I had to do something that I would make money in. My parents would always tell me that I couldn’t just be a teacher or a writer because that wasn’t what the world needed right now. I always listened and did what they said because I didn’t really have another idea as of what I wanted to do.

I figured out today that I have always known what I wanted to do with my life, and I now have to make up for lost time to be able to make it a reality. I want to write! I have been writing the beginnings of books since I was a freshman in high school. I would come up with the plot, characters, hidden meanings and even get it all going but then I would get stuck and frustrated and give up. The only book that I actually kept up for almost three full years got destroyed when my basement flooded killing my computer and my external hard-drive. I just got my new laptop and external hard-drive and I plan to re-write it as best as I can, but knowing myself and how I write it will probably get deleted.

I want to write for the comment, even though that doesn’t seem very hard it is for me. I am scared that I will start to write and it won’t be good, and then I will end up feeling like I failed yet again and I just don’t think I can handle that one more time. I want to do this so badly it hurts and I want to push myself to be the best I can be so that I can accomplish every goal that I make for myself. I am determined to do well, even if it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I know that I can do it, WILL DO IT!

Starting tonight I am going to go above and beyond my usual a hundred percent and do two hundred. I am going to make sure assignments are great, not just good and that not only do I finish the assigned readings for classes but I read more than I have to. I am willing to do whatever it takes, and it takes a whole lot.