9.1.12

You've got to learn to push through the hard times 

because you have to face them. Running from them 

now will only make you too tired to fight through 
them when they catch up to you later.

Dream what you want to dream.  Go where you want to go.  Be what you want to be.  Because you only have one life to live and one chance to do it all.  Don't waste your life doing something not for yourself. 
They attack her from all sides, they strike her weakest parts, but as they wait for her to fall, they see this is only the start. She won't go down without a fight, they won't have an easy win. She'll give it all till she has nothing left and as she falls they'll see her grin.
“You think the only people who are people, 

are the people who look and think like you. 

But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, 
you’ll learn things you never knew.” 
- Pocahontas 

I don't get attached. I don't want a relationship unless you can prove to me you're not all the same. No, your words don't mean shit to me. No, I don't trust you. No, I don't believe you. Promises are nothing but empty words to me. I know I'm not your one and only so don't tell me I am. No, my smile doesn't make your day. No, my laughter isn't music to your ears. No, I'm not too good to be true, so start with thetruth. If I'm what you want, tell me why and tell me often. Tell me you love me, but only if you mean it.
I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive, or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eye, everything you need, just what you want. I want to be yours.
In the last few days you have made me feel alive. 

You've made me feel beautiful and intelligent and 

wanted. And no matter how hard I try, I'll never be 
able to tell you how much that has meant to me.

Life doesn't give you the people you want. It gives 

you the people you need. To help you. To hurt you. 

To love you. To leave you. And to make you into 
the person you were meant to be.

Always try your best to get whatever you love; 

otherwise you will be forced to love whatever you get.

But then I realized I was holding on to something that didn’t exist anymore. That the person I missed didn't exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change. And we could wish all day long that they didn't, but they always will.
You are living and loving and making your mark 

on the world. Make sure to leave a mark that 

can't be easily erased.

Guys think of you as a video game. They play you and keep beating levels, but if they get mad at the game, they yell and scream at it, then eventually turn it off if it isn't going their way. And when they finally finish the game and beat the last level, they get bored and don't want to play the game anymore because there's nothing new left to do, nothing new to learn. Guys don't like a game that's easy to beat, they want a challenge, just one that's not hard enough to run down their ego.
When someone wants a boyfriend, it won't help to tell them that some don't even have parents. Just because others are starving doesn't mean you can't be hungry. Some people may be striving to live, but that doesn't mean others aren't wishing to die. Problems are relative, just because someone else's problem may be larger than yours does not mean yours don't matter.
You can say sorry a million times, say I love you as much as you want, say whatever you want, whenever or however you want. But if you're not going to prove that the things you say are true, then don't say anything at all. If you can't show it, your words don't mean a thing. 
If your absent during my struggle, don't expect to be present during my success. 
"We live in a world of worse-case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best, because too many times, the best doesn’t happen. But every now and then, something extraordinary occurs. And suddenly, best case scenarios seem possible. Every now and then, something amazing happens. And, against our better judgment, we start to have hope."
"I want someone to fall in love with the way I laugh and the way I smile. I want someone to listen to the ramblings of my inner child. Someone who touches my face and brushes the hair from my eyes. I want someone who loves me or at least holds me like they do. But I only want that if it’s you."
"You don't choose who you fall for, you just fall. And you get this person who is all wrong, yet so right at the same time. You know that you like them so much, except sometimes they drive youcompletely insane and no one can explain it. The reason it’s so confusing is because it’s love, and if you didn’t have any challenges, what would be the point?"
The best feeling in the world is doing something that everyone else said you couldn't.
If you're single, focus on being a better you 

instead of looking for someone better than 

your ex. A better you will attract a better next.

People are always gonna try and bring you down below them, but smile when they're staring andshow them who's strong.
For the rest of my life, I will always wonder why things seemed to be so unfair. I will always want to know what I did to deserve what happened to me. I will always wake up thinking everything's okay, later on realizing that it isn't, and that it most likely never will be. I will cry about it, and I will be angry. I will always have problems trusting people. I'll never think that anything will last. Friendships, and relationships.. all of them just seem doomed. But I still try. For the rest of my life, I will try.
You know what?  I'm proud of my heart.  It's been 

through a lot.  It's been played, cheated, burned, stabbed,

and broken, but somehow against all odds it still works.

You can be happy tomorrow. You can be happy when you get through your list of things to do. You can be happy when you meet the one. You can be happy when you get the right job. You can be happy when you get that raise. You can be happy when you stop buying the things you need and start buying the things you want. You can be happy when you retire. You can be happy when the weather suits you. You can be happy on plan. You can be happy in the rain. Or you can stop reading this, take a deep breath, and be happy right now.

3.12.11

i think im fallin for you

I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that's all they do. They don't pull away, they don't look at your face, they don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.
So here's a piece of advice: let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things aren't like before. Because, surely there is someone out there who will love you even more.
You wanna play the game? It's like this: you play around, you have fun, you share secrets, you tell stories, you cry on each others shoulders, you hold hands, you think about forever. But, you DON'T fall in love. Because, the first one who does, loses.
Love is about taking risks. And maybe, if we forgave ourselves and we forgave each other we could work out. You're the first person I want to talk to, it's like something hasn't even happened until I tell it to you. I like you. And I like me when I'm with you. 
A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes, send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $9.50 to see it. He'll call to say "goodnight" or just because he's missing you. He'll look into your eyes and tell you that you're the most beautiful girl in the world. And for the first time in your life, you'll believe it. -Nicholas Sparks
I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we're just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you,like your nose or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eye too. And I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh, I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that's what I wish for you. For you to be happy. And when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my time with you so I can see a smile on your face. 
Sometimes there doesn't even have to be a reason. I knew from experience that no matter how much you turn things in your head, trying to make sense of them, some people just defy all logic.
Don't ever use someone's past against them. You're just reminding them of the mistakes they made back then. If you watch their facial expression carefully, then you'll see the hurt in their eyes as they reminisce everything that happened. Never use emotion as a weapon, it strikes deeper than you can imagine. 
 Never reject anybody in your life, because good people give us happiness and bad people give us experience. Both are essential in life.
I'm not miserable, but I'm not happy. I'm not strong, but I'm not weak. I'm not rude, but I'm not polite. I'm not popular, but I'm not a loner. I'm not sexy, but I'm not horrid. I'm not dumb, but I'm no genius. I'm not you, but I am me. Accept it.
She's the girl that has a few best friends and doesn't need anymore. The girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you right back and say sorry. She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her. The girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. 
I’ve been making a list of the things they don’t teach you in school. They don’t teach you how to love somebody. They don’t teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don’t teach you how to walk away from someone you don’t love any longer. They don’t teach you how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind. They don’t teach you what to say to someone who’s dying. Honestly, they don’t teach you anything important.
Sometimes I still stare at you, amazed and absolutely enchanted. And even though I've held your gaze a thousand times, when you turn to me and give me that silly grin of yours, you still make me blush. 
want my advice? stay mad as long as you can. because once you're not mad anymore, it hurts. it hurts like hell and once it hurts that bad you can't make yourself mad anymore.
You give me more courage than anyone I have ever known. I’d skydive off a plane if I knew you'd be there, right beside me. That's what life is about. It's those moments when you feel entirely carefree, like nothing can touch you. It's those moments that make the hard parts worth it; those moments when I'm with you. 
okay, this is going to sound so bad, but the world is an unfair place. it is. & no one can tell you how you see it. it's like one person thinks it's a shitbox place, & another thinks it's beautiful. & it's true. it's all true. parts are beautiful, & parts are shitty, just like our life we have. but tell me this: how could you know what happy is, if you've never experienced tradgey?

Don't search for love, 
search for someone that makes you happy. 
Sooner or later, that happiness will evolve 

into love. 
You can't be perfect for everybody,
but you will always be best for the one who truly 
deserves you.


Relationships don't need promises, terms, and conditions.
It just needs two wonderful people; one who can 

trust and one who can understand.