most importantly

All the ways you wish you could be, 

that's me. I look like you wanna look,

I fuck like you wanna fuck, I am smart, capable,

and most importantly, I am free in all

the ways that you are not. 

++ Fight Club

Wrote this poem. Corny, but I like it.

I don't want you back, that's not it at all.
I hate that you are still in my head.
I hate that you made me fall.

It's head over heels, and mind over matter.
To let go or move on?
I'm guessing the latter.

It's been awhile since we last spoke.
Longer since I saw you.
I wish this was a joke.

I know that you will always have my heart.
And always be apart of me.
I knew that from the start.

It's really over, as hard as that is to say.
I hope that one day I can move on.
Somehow, and some way.

Quotes & Pictures, my favorites so far.

Unless it is mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it is a waste of time. 

There are too many mediocre things in life. Love should not be one of them.

 Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, 
or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.

 the best feeling in the world is the one you can't describe

 Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends

 For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for 

everything you gain, you lose something else.

 Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.

 Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.

 People don't really want the truth, they just want good news.

 Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first. Cause without sadness, there's no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

 love is everything it's cracked up to be. it really is worth fighting for, 

being brave for, risking everything for, and the trouble is if you don't risk 

anything, you risk even more

Nothing is certain anymore. I don't know what in the world is the right thing to do, and so I'm stuck here in a place I don't want to be. I don't want to sit back and watch you be fine without me. I don't want to cry and carry on like I have been doing for the past month. I just want not to want you anymore. I want to, hell I need to, just move on.

She's been wrong, she's been lied to. She's been deceived and she's been used over and over again; but this is the last straw. Your luck's run out, your “sorrys” don't mean a thing. She's over your apologizes, she's tired of your games. She's going to do what's best for her, she now knows the truth. That's why this time, she's walking out on you.

I guess it's just hard talking to you when you were once my everything. I depended on you & you let me down. It's hard to talk to you when every time we do, I feel mad at you. I guess we'll just have to see where live takes us. Maybe we're meant to never talk again, maybe we're meant to be friends, or maybe we're meant to be together. We'll just have to wait and see.

Don't let him tell you you're not worth it. You're amazing, you're beautiful. And you could love him more than anyone else could. And if he can't see that this is a once in a lifetime chance, he's just not worth it.

We all have that boy. That boy who you're completely over, but you still think about before you sleep. That boy who you avoid talking to, but still wish he would talk to you just once. That boy who you have to make yourself not think about, but always wonder if he is thinking about you.

You want to know what makes me love you more than I loved him? It's because when he got me, I was perfectly unused, I was fearless and not to mention - a hopeless romantic. When you got me, I was already bruised and battered, I was hurting and I was afraid of the world. I was cynical about love, and yet despite all of this, you never leave.

I planned to say all these terrible things to you, but in the end, I just want to tell you I miss you. There was never a moment I tried to remember you, because there was never a moment I forgot you.

It's so weird. You're so different from all the others I have liked. We barely know each other and I freak out if you even say a word to me. It seems so unreal for us to be together, yet for some reason I can picture us together: talking, laughing, and taking crazy pictures. As much as I want to give up sometimes, I keep on trying because something in my gut tells me that we are meant to be, and that one day, it just might happen.

Even though you are a liar, if you told me right now that you loved me and that you were sorry, I would believe you.

I’ve been the rebound, the challenge, the fall back, and the girlfriend. I’ve been the mistake and the correction. One day someone will love me for what I’ve been and what I am, where I’ve been and where I am. One day, someone will love me for me. So love me cause you can, not because you should.

it's like a weight has been lifted, i can finally breathe. not worry about what he will say, or when he would've finally stopped ignoring me. because now i no longer care. he doesn't concern me. i just wonder if he'll come back to me someday wishing he never screwed things up.but if this is the way it was meant to be,then i'm honestly okay with that. this time, i'm okay.i've realized it's not boys who make or break you, it's only you who decides. so no matter what happens, i'll be just fine. i've already got all that i need.

Stop saying you're sorry. You wanna know something? I knew. I knew you didn't feel
that way about me. I knew, and I still let it happen. Because, well, I figured that one
 night with you was better than never. So, will you stop saying you're sorry?
Because you didn't know better, but I did.

he said "i didn't mean to break your heart,-"
and before he could finish she replied with
"i didn't mean to fall in love either, but
we all make mistakes."

Guys think of you as a video game. They play you and keep beating levels. But, if they get mad at the game, they yell & scream at it, then eventually turn it off if it isn't going their way. And when they finally finish the game & beat the last level, they get bored and don't want to play the game again, because there's nothing new left to do, nothing new to learn. Guys don't like a game that's easy to beat; they want a challenge. Just one that's not hard enough to run down their ego.

One day you're going to want that specific girl.  That girl that knew she wasn't perfect,  but tried to be for you.  That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you and love you the only way she knew she could.
That girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths.  That girl who still can't bring herself to hate you, even though you probably deserve it

 sometimes i wish i had never met you. because then i could go to
 sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.

Your friends are your release; they're who you have the most fun with. And yet when the going gets tough, those people turn around and suddenly, they're not just making you laugh. They're being this rock and giving you all their advice, even though you're so much your own person. If you dissect yourself, I guarantee you, your friends are in there. Their influence is incredible. They're the people whom you need most in your life.      

Find the one you can be yourself in front of. Someone that you can share anything with; like a best friend. It's when you can't even imagine what your life would be like without that other person and even though it doesn't make sense to other people, you know that you're meant to be together.

I just hope one day you see me, and your heart stops, and you realize what you could’ve had this whole time.

I don't want him to be perfect. I want him to laugh at me, trip me, then help me back up. Pick me up and throw me into the pool, make me watch hours of football & take me to the arcade and beat me at air hockey. But most of all, I want him to love me for who I am.

 You looked at me and said, "Do you ever feel like you're working for something you're never going to get? A shoot and miss kind of deal. Like, no matter what, you can't have it. But that makes you fight for it just a little more?" I looked at him, stared for a second, and replied "Every day."

I wish there was some way  to make you know how much you hurt me. I hope you’re sorry, but if not, I hope one day you realize what you did to me.

He talked to her again, as friends. 
It's been a while, but his eyes were just as blue and his smile was just as bright as always. 
He made her smile, he made her fall in love, again.

and if all those words you said to me actually meant something, maybe we wouldn't be standing where we are today.

don't talk to me because you havent had any luck finding another girl to replace me.you pushed me away remember? i wanted us to work so badly but you clearly couldn't care. i'm not going to be here when you want back in, because this time baby your going to be the one who gets walked away from.

honey, i wish you the best finding someone that will put up with all your shit.

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT

Harry Potter 6, part 1 comes out in 9 days and 24 minutes <3

NOTE TO OTHERS!!!

DO NOT TAKE LOGIC CLASSES TO FILL UP YOUR SCHEDULE.. YOU WILL CONTEMPLATE SUICIDE :)

Pictures & Quotes

 this is the beginning of a new day. you have been given this day to use it as you will. you can waste it or use it for good. what you do today is important because you're exchanging a day of your life for it. when tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever. in its place is something that you have left behind. let it be something good

 if you have to convince yourself that you don't care about someone

you care about them more than you think.

 maybe its not about the happy ending. maybe it's about what you

do with your time before you get to the end.

 sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. if they care they'll

notice. if they don't, you know where you stand.

 this isn't what i want, but i'll take the high road. maybes it's because i look at everything as a lesson. or because i don't want to walk around angry. or maybe it's because i finally understand. there are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept. things we don't want to know, but have to learn. & people we can't live without, but have to let go.

++Criminal Minds.

  look at life through the windshield, not the rear view mirror.

  don't worry about knowing people. make yourself worth knowing.

Everyone tries to impress that special someone, but if you can't get them by

being yourself they can't be all that special.

do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone. and do not be troubled about the future for it has not come yet. live in the present and make it so beautiful that it'll be worth remembering 

  I'm not giving up, I'm simply doing what's best for me and that's not

being a part of your life anymore.

 I know we're complete strangers now. We both pretend like we don't care, but I can feel the tension as much as you can. I know how to hide my feelings from your piercing stare and no matter what you think, I still miss you. 

 Sometimes in your life, you need lust. You need the adrenaline rush of knowing that this is not forever, and that you're not committed to anything.

 i believe in karma. what you give is what you get returned. i believe you 

can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. i believe the grass is

 greener on the other side. i believe you don't know what you've got until 

you have to say goodbye.

there is no right person. there’s just a person. and if that’s the person you want to 

be with and have a family with, then be with that person. if you don’t want to be 

with that person, don’t be with that person. it’s not that complicated.  

 never let success get to your head.

& never let failure get to your heart. 

We think about it, sing about it, dream about it, and lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.

thinking that life will treat you fairly just because you're a good person is like expecting that an angry 
bull won't charge at you because you're a vegetarian

I haven’t seen you, feels like a long time.
Sometimes it still hurts, but I always get by.
Still got a piece of you under my skin.
It’s always there no matter where I’ve been.

Because lately, I just keep hearing people blame love. But love doesn't walk away, people do.

Sometimes I think that you’re not the person that I thought you were. Like you’re just like every other guy that’s 
broken my heart. And that’s really disappointing.

Before you go and criticize someone else, remember, you've got your own imperfections too.

you really love him don't you?
a simple psychological quiestion.
not a single name was mentioned,
but someone suddenly came into your mind.

my feelings just changed. i had been waiting for you to realize you couldn't go another day without me. i had played out every excuse you could of had for putting all that time between us. missing you had become second nature to me. and somewhere in the last year, when i never got that phone call, and you never showed up at my window, and we never ran into each other, i just stopped feeling like i needed you so much.

the most heartbreaking part of a breakup is that moment when you realize that all the dreams you had, all those visions you had being with this person disappears. everything after that moment is moving on.
- taylor swift

we both stare at each other, wishing for the right words to say, we know they aren’t enough. no matter what happens i will always be there, and you can always run back to me. whenever that may be.

a guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. he’ll brush the hair out of your eyes. send you flowers when you least expect it. he’ll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. he’ll call to say goodnight or just cause he is missing you. he’ll look in your eyes and tell you, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it.
- nicholas sparks

i found what i was looking for. it wasn't a boy, and it wasn't love. i found me. and that's all i need right now.

you left a huge mark on me. one you'll never imagine. i cant even go to the movie theater without remembering all our memories we shared there together. i cant go to the park without thinking about the long days we spent just acting goofy together. i mean its gotten so bad that even when i walk onto my own porch, i still remember your face of how scared you looked when you first came over. we had some good times, and it hurts that you're letting them go. i know i wont, but i'll let you think i dont remember. i'll let you think that i dont know you think about them too. i know you do, i know when you see me, or the next time you come up on my block.. you'll remember, you'll smile and you wont realize it. but i'll never let you know i can tell you still feel it.

there's always going to be that tiny little voice in the back of my head that tells me it may not really be over between us. it's never around for long though, my realistic voice shuts it right up.

she glances in the mirror and throws her hair up,
ripped jeans, an old hoodie -- they're all she
needs. she runs out the door, five minutes before
class starts and arrives just as the bell rings,
cheeks flushed. she doesn't try that hard at
school and she plays sports because she likes to
run. her room's a mess and her cell phone's
always dead, but she just smiles ; she knows the
world is hers. she has her enemies, she's made
mistakes and she knows it. but she doesn't care.
she's happy with who she is and who she has
because that's all she needs.

be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. and you do